And then… welcome back. What now?
The guide offering this medicine tuned into where my “head” was at and felt where my energy was moving and our conversation before this experience was simply perfect. What was meant to be.
I was in such a good place to receive the gift of the toad by the time I inhaled the medicine… “Nothing is in this pipe but pure love.”
More words for what has no words: After inhaling a wave / surge of intense light / LOVE / energy rushed over me – into me – through me – with me and I flowed into it… becoming it. I am that. I am.
No time. No thought. No senses. No memories. One with all nothing void everything peace love light awareness consciousness emptiness eternity.
Coming back to physical awareness 15 minutes later? (or after an eternity of ‘no time’) I remember sitting up as if in a dream and chanting intensely “LOVE! LOVE! LOVE!” feeling the words vibrate through me rather than my speaking them. I NEEDED to move that energy through me! And then I collapsed… spent.
Once I became aware of my body again the first words I remember saying: “I just want to LOVE more.”
And then it hit me… intense deep heart-felt true belly laughter! For several minutes I couldn’t stop laughing until my abs hurt and my eyes teared. “I get it!” LMFAO!
“So that’s it?” I asked him. “Yes, that’s it,” he laughed.
“So… all that to come back around to see what already is. I mean… that’s always already been this. It IS what it IS.”
The Cosmic Joke. So fkn brilliant, hilarious, beautiful and simple. We “try” so hard to get to where we already are (because there is only HERE and NOW). I love it. I really truly love this life.
And I LOVE you.
Hello Josh, excellent 1st person witness. I am finding your journey vibrating in the same place I am. Its all relevant to our current coversation from the other day. Fantastic.
We will talk more soon.
As well i want to thank you for speaking so open and honestly about your fears and ego protests.
Love and light
Andrew